In my last post I subtly referenced that I’d parted ways with my agent. I was pretty blindsided by the split and it’s taken me a few months to process my feelings around it. On the one hand, I feel as though I’ve taken a big step backwards in my career. It made me question if I was actually any good and wonder if I would ever publish another book. And while these feelings are valid, and for the most part true, I have now come to see it as a fresh start.
Instead of a step backwards, I’ve simply stepped to the side of the path, where I can take a moment to look back on where I came from and ahead to where I want to be. And there are many directions I can take.
I’d like to find a new agent who believes in me and wants to help me make all my author-ly dreams come true. And maybe that’s the path I’ll walk. Or maybe I’ll go the indie publishing route and take complete control of the stories I want to share. Or maybe I’ll do both.
This experience has made me see that taking time to rest and reevaluate is important in other areas of my life as well. I’m always going a hundred miles a minute, jumping from one task to the next, pulled forward by momentum and only resting when I finally implode. It’s not sustainable. In my daily life or my writing one.
So my friends, this is a friendly reminder that it’s okay to step off the path you thought you were supposed to be on and take a look around. Maybe you’ll decide to head in the same direction, and maybe not. Maybe something amazing you never expected is waiting just around the bend. I certainly hope that’s the case for me.
